home again

it's monday so that must mean that i'm back home. while it's good to have the opportunity to sleep in my own bed (for at least a couple of nights), it appears that i have not only returned home but i've returned to the emotional state i was in before i left.

even as i was winging my way back from the left coast, thoughts that i had not had during the course of the convention weekend began creeping their way back into my conscious mind. the same questions and issues that have been plaguing me for weeks came back into full view and with them my state of euphoria began to erode.

today has continued that trend, resulting in my feeling pretty blue. i'm not sure if the upcoming trip will alleviate any of the heaviness but i'm hopeful. i have a few potentially nice experiences that may occur in the next slate of travel (first stop, miami again), and i am hopeful that i will be able to get some answers to some of those questions as well. we'll just have to see if that will be the case.

in the meantime, i'm going to take a quick nap right now and when i wake i'll unpack a few dolls and try to recapture some of the joy of the past weekend. later i will start packing with hopeful anticipation that good things are to come. again, we'll just have to wait and see.