another reprise (or the sad truth)

a link to the past (of this blog). this song was originally posted in the entry an elegy to a relationship, part one. more experiences, more reflecting bring me back to this place. different context, different meanings, same emotion.

the change - evanescence

a plea

two meditations on longing and desire for intimate connection. one is physical, the other emotional. different in nature but both are expressions of the space i'm in -- especially today. someone please hear me.

scream - usher

don't let me be lonely tonight - james taylor

. . . . and tired

i think this song pretty much says it all in how i've been feeling of late -- at least in tone rather than literal words. something's gotta change soon.

sick -- evanescence

someday soon?

i heard this song on the plane yesterday (another of a completely different nature from this album will be coming later in the week). in looking for a link to the song i discovered this little tidbit about it's meaning:

it is "an inspirational song about finding one's destiny, and becoming numb to the negativity and just following your dreams."

i'm not sure i got all of that with the repeat listenings i had on the plane, but i do know it spoke to a deep place in me. if that's what's intended though, i can only hope that a seed has been planted that will yield those results. we'll have to see (i'm writing that a lot).

numb - usher

letting the music take over

there are times when using my own words comes to an end and the music needs to take over. this is one of those times and so the remaining entries, for this week at least, will be various songs that have spoken to me in the recent season of life. consider this musical interlude a mini-soundtrack for this particular moment in time.

today two versions of the same song. two songs, one hope-filled invitation.

somewhere only we know - keane

somewhere only we know - glee presents the warblers

home again

it's monday so that must mean that i'm back home. while it's good to have the opportunity to sleep in my own bed (for at least a couple of nights), it appears that i have not only returned home but i've returned to the emotional state i was in before i left.

even as i was winging my way back from the left coast, thoughts that i had not had during the course of the convention weekend began creeping their way back into my conscious mind. the same questions and issues that have been plaguing me for weeks came back into full view and with them my state of euphoria began to erode.

today has continued that trend, resulting in my feeling pretty blue. i'm not sure if the upcoming trip will alleviate any of the heaviness but i'm hopeful. i have a few potentially nice experiences that may occur in the next slate of travel (first stop, miami again), and i am hopeful that i will be able to get some answers to some of those questions as well. we'll just have to see if that will be the case.

in the meantime, i'm going to take a quick nap right now and when i wake i'll unpack a few dolls and try to recapture some of the joy of the past weekend. later i will start packing with hopeful anticipation that good things are to come. again, we'll just have to wait and see.