it is a feeling that has haunted me much of my life. it is a feeling that used to be isolated to my "personal" life, but now, with the the struggles to find a permanent job role over the past two plus years, it has consumed my "professional" life as well. and with this consumption, it now feels that there is no aspect of my life in which i feel well or welcome in this world. it has been the darkest period of my life -- one in which i have never felt more alone or forgotten, never more unwanted.
