an elegy to a relationship, part one

It's been a good and difficult period of life all at the same time. The next two posts are about the difficult part. Not using many words of my own. For this experience I resort again to my emotional outlet of music, and with that, one of my favorite groups as the messenger. Heard these two songs, which interestingly enough, are back to back on the latest Evanescence album. With each one I felt, "yes, that's what is going on in my heart," and I knew I had to post them here. Click on the title of the song to get to the music, but I've provided the lyrics here as well .

"The Change" - Evanescence



Thought that I was strong

I know the words I need to say

Frozen in my place

I let the moment slip away



I've been screaming on the inside

And I know you feel the pain

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

Aaa aaa aaa [repeats]



Say it's over,

Yes it's over

But I need you anyway

Say you love me but it's not enough



Never meant to lie

But I'm not the girl you think you know

The more that I am with you

The more that I am all alone



I've been screaming on the inside

And I know you feel the pain

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

Aaa aaa aaa [repeats]



Say it's over,

Yes it's over

But I need you anyway

Say you love me but it's not enough



Not that I'm so different

Not that I don't see

The dying light of what we used to be

But how could I forgive you?

You've changed!

And I'm a liar by your side

I'm about to lose my mind



'Cause I've been screaming on the inside

And I know you feel the pain

Can you hear me?

Can you hear me?

Aaa aaa aaa [repeats]



You've been dreaming

If you're thinking

That I still belong to you

And I've been dying,

Because I'm lying to myself!

Aaa aaa aaa [repeats]



Say it's over,

Yes it's over

But I need you anyway

Say you love me but it's not enough