i can't even figure out what to title this entry

something's wrong. i'm not myself. i'm not reacting the way i normally do. it started last night with my not connecting to the music that i was listening to. today i was extremely tired. tonight i can't seem to put together a coherent thought. and all i keep thinking is how i wish i could go home but not home as in a literal place but rather "home" as that ideal of the place where you feel safe, secure and loved. i don't know where that place is or even more so if that place will ever exist again for me. is it possible my daily emotional struggle is somehow impairing my normal brain function? more importantly, how long will it last?