maybe this was a go fuck yourself after all

i waited for days for an answer. a simple question posed. a heart felt response to which i gave myself, opening myself in ways that may seem easy to some but become ever more difficult and painful each time i do. and i waited for an answer that i know now will never come. so i will stop waiting. and my heart breaks anew and i think even less of myself than i did before. and the universe shrugs and says (as do you dear sean), "whatever...."