the grind

there are just these times in our work lives where getting up, going into the office, and getting through the day seems to be this continuously wearying exercise. even now, when i find myself in the best job i've ever had, in the best organization i've ever worked for, i find myself having this kind of experience. the last couple of days have been very much emblematic of the term that has been invented to describe this experience,"the daily grind."

i'm sure it doesn't help that i'm still very much struggling emotionally -- a fact confirmed during my conversation with my primary care physician yesterday. i believe his exact phrasing was, "oh yeah, i definitely think you need to go into therapy" in response to my unpacking what i felt was only the first pieces of the emotional baggage i've been carrying. good news is he gave me a therapist. bad news is my not having the motivation to make an appointment to see him, particularly since he's not exactly close by. i also need to check in with my insurance company about who they would recommend. more to do with little to no energy to do it.

so it's tuesday and it already feels like i've been through a full work week. i don't suppose i can call in sick to life can i?