"well, it's pretty much that i've come to realize that i really like you...." it was a simple declaration to begin an explanation of what was going on with me over the previous weekend that had been filled with much emotional angst.
i was reflecting last night on how allowing that one realization to settle into my heart and mind had done so much to clarify for me what was going on with me in my friendship with sean. because i knew we were not likely to have an opportunity to converse due to his schedule, i had the opportunity to think about the past six or so months of being friends. it was a nice mental exercise as i got to be reminded of all of the reasons that underlay the liking him. it brought a great warmth to my soul and a lift to my spirits and i experienced the great power that exists in the emotion of liking someone.
yet, as with all great powers, there is a shadow side. certainly, when we like someone that generates a desire to engage with that person as often as is reasonable and possible and when there are restrictions to that ability to engage, it can create frustration and disappointment. as a result, the warm soul grows a little cooler and the spirit begins a descent.
there is another aspect to shadow side of the power of liking someone. at least there is in my experience. for me liking someone means that i allow them free entry into the precious real estate that is my heart. and as i have shared in other entries, that interior access brings about a degree of vulnerability to that person's actions and whether intentionally or unintentional in their hurtful nature, the wounds cut quicker and deeper.still, wounds do heal and hearts can be made whole again. and certainly liking someone can go a long way and contribute a great deal to that process.
and so i'll close with another simple statement. be grateful this day for the people you like (even if you can't be with them as often or as much as you want).
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