a little tummy trouble

so i've been having some stomach troubles the last couple of days. i'm suspecting that it was brought about by something that i ate on sunday. i can tell you it made the 3 hour and 40 minute flight home quite an unpleasant trip. when i got home i immediately got into my pj's, climbed into bed, and slept for three hours. the rest of the evening was spent wishing someone would put me out of my misery.

today i'm doing a better but still experiencing the after effects. i don't know what it is but there's something about being sick when you are alone that makes the experience that much more difficult. maybe it's the fact that while you're lying in bed dealing with whatever illness, all you want is for someone to tell you that you will get better. 

i think that kind of reassurance is something i would like for my life writ large and not just related to my tummy. my time off has been good for providing me with a much needed rest, but i haven't yet been revitalized in my outlook on my life. maybe my next few days as i travel west to spend some time on the left coast will move me further along. i just know that i need for things to change in my life. i need friends and companionship and loving. most of all i need the ability to believe that all of these things are still possible for my life and that i am able to bring them about.