well, vacation is done, and it's back to work for me. today is actually a travel day as i wing my way to one of our regional offices for a week of work. it's a two plus hour flight across two time zones. once i settle into the hotel, i plan on spending the rest of the evening going through my mountain of emails (450 at last count) and preparing for a presentation that i have to give tomorrow morning.
so two weeks of vacation and what do i have to show for it. well, i do feel rested. that's the good news. however, over the course of the weekend and upon waking this morning, i've felt a growing lack of excitement about getting back into the swing of my routine life. with that, the sad thoughts and feelings about being alone and unconvinced that that condition will change any time soon have been steadily pushing their way to the forefront of my conscious mind. it really feels as if i am just picking up where i left off prior to vacation in my less than enthusiastic take on life (not that it was the rosiest of outlooks during my time off).
and so it is back into the fray with a renewed body but a still wounded and weary spirit. not exactly the combination i had hoped for, and i have no idea what that will mean for the days ahead. i suppose we will just have to wait and see.
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