there are days that i wake up, and a thought about what i need to share in this blog immediately comes to mind. then there are other days when i have absolutely no inkling of what i want to write about. today was one of those days of the latter description, and when i have those days i know that i'm just going to have to wait for the inspiration to come through some experience. sometimes it does. sometimes it doesn't, and when it doesn't then there just isn't an entry that day.
today i was fortunate as i didn't have to wait that long before the moment of inspiration found me. i was online video chatting with a friend, who is a very talented singer/songwriter. after a bit, he decided to share a beautiful original song he had written (related to which i was trying to convince him to make a video, so i could post it on here as a blog song of the day). after that he sang, the song i am posting today, following which i thanked him for giving me both the song for today and the direction for the narrative portion of this entry.
the song speaks to a topic that has been much reflected upon in this blog, that being the idea of "home" and more specifically finding home. my feelings of being isolated and not "at home" really anywhere in this world have haunted me for the predominate portion of my life. i do at least vaguely remember that "home" at one time meant a place of safety, love and acceptance. that was a long time ago, but it is that memory that causes me to, in times of great stress and difficulty, say to myself, "i just want to go home." i know that i'm not referring to any particular place when i do that. i'm referring to retreating to a place where i will be immersed in those feelings that i once associated with having a home.
i'm still searching for it, for home, and since i seem unable to find it, i hope (just as the inspiration for this entry did) it will find me. and now i close with this lovely song shared with me by one of the loveliest men i have ever met.
homeward bound - simon and garfunkel
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