flood

the weather here has been pretty spectacular. though it's gotten pretty hot, it has also been wonderfully sunny, and i'm not sure if i've ever seen bluer skies. something that has also been interesting though is, on a couple of days, storm clouds have formed in the afternoons, producing torrential rain and lightning that has been equally as awe-inspiring.

my mood lately has been very much like the weather here. i can be in the best of moods and then a remark here, a comment there, and i hear thunder on the horizon.

today would be a perfect example. after a pretty successful day, i awoke in a mood as brilliantly bright as the sunny, cloudless sky outside my window. then i came across a comment on my blog that remarked about my needing a dog to help with my moods. 

now, the comment was perfectly innocent and meant in good humor. but that doesn't help the fact that i'm still not past the death of nicholas. he was my first and really only dog and was the only being in this world for whom i had pure, unadulterated love. he died too young of a disorder that i don't understand and it hurts as much to think about his death as any other one i've ever experienced in my life. 

sunny skies gave way too darkening clouds. and now, there's a a cascade of rain stemming from my heart and a flood pouring through my soul.