worst weekend ever

when i look back on recent events, i know i will recall that this was a difficult period in life. i wonder if i will remember this specific weekend as one that was particularly difficult. funny i should have that perspective when all i've done through most of it is sleep. then again, the sleep has been a defense mechanism used to cope with the relentless onslaught of thoughts of how bleak and barren my life seems at this point and how unending that condition appears. you know life is really tough when making it through each moment feels like an accomplishment.