so this weekend i am going to do something or rather not do something that i have done pretty regularly over the past few weeks. there is the real potential for me getting my feelings hurt by not doing this. i know this because i have done the "not doing this" before and my feelings being hurt is exactly what happened.
and yet, today, the thought of doing what i'm not going to do makes me see and feel about myself in ways that i'd rather not. i know there's a certain degree of pride (perhaps wounded) involved in this reaction, and, certainly, i question if it's misplaced and whether i should respond to it. still, and maybe it's due to the experimental perspective that was at the foundation of my academic development, i feel somewhat compelled to see what will happen by not doing it.
i have to also admit that i'm not exactly optimistic about the results. whatever happens, you can be sure that i will comment about it on here.
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