upfront disclaimer: not about sean
i find it to be the strangest of phenomenons when a person tells you that they are your friend and how much they care about you, yet, when that same person does something that leads to your being hurt, he is nowhere to be seen. this seems to be a common trait in most men i've encountered. i'm doing my best (and failing) to not be disappointed and further hurt by the absence in this particular situation. yet despite the various means for contacting me that i've shared with (actually, now i'm feeling more like maybe it felt like forced upon) this particular individual, there is no check in, no wondering how you're doing since we last talked. only silence.
i guess i need to accept that it is the rare guy who is willing to enter into the pain of another person, especially if he may have contributed to causing that pain. even so, at the moment all i feel is being so very fucking weary of believing and trusting in what men tell me. it seems to just keep bringing me back to the same not very good place.
so, here's a song from the archives that while not exactly about this scenario, it is a great song for venting the emotion i feel (particularly the chorus).
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