every day it feels that i'm proceeding on a journey deeper into a darkness of the mind and spirit. even with as many interventions that have been attempted to provide a course correction, nothing seems to stem or slow it's continued progress (and today's song, though stemming from a different experience, at least tangentially reminds me of the feelings i've been having particularly as related to the latest medical intervention intended to address my clinical depression).
it is difficult to feel particularly optimistic in the face of this kind of experience. my engagement levels in and enthusiasm for pretty much of anything in my life continues to greatly diminish. i continue to feel very alone in this struggle and see no change in that state anytime in the foreseeable future.
alone. broken. lost. yes, dark times indeed.
they say that it is always darkest before the dawn. if this is indeed true then sunrise should indeed be imminent. please forgive me if i am doubtful though that this endless night will ever cease.
bloodstream - ed sheeran
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