in a spiral

not much to share. a difficult night followed by an even more painful morning. i awoke to a simple statement that reminded me of something that seems to be the culminating truth of all that i've reflected on - i'm a failure at realtionship. i'm a terrible son, terrible partner, terrible lover, terrible friend. please don't try to tell that it's not true. not today. i wouldn't hear you even if you did, even if you wanted to. oh and when a little voice tells you that maybe you shouldn't check your skype this morning, next time listen.