better living through chemistry? not yet

the next time my doctor makes a suggestion about changing my psychotropic meds, i hope i come back to this entry before i agree to do so. it's not so much that i wish to dissuade my future self from making said changes, i just want him to be aware of what he's in for. thus far, i've experienced headaches, dizziness, hot flashes, and worst of all, even deeper moments of depression to the point of feeling like i would do almost anything to escape the pain.

i know this is the drill. i experienced the same symptoms when i started on the medicine i was taking previously. eventually, i got adjusted and found that particular drug to be quite helpful. i would like to say that i am confident that this will be the case this time. i would even like to say i'm hopeful but hope has been in short supply these days (actually, i think i'm pretty much running on empty in that category). let's not forget that's at least part of the reason i'm going through all of this in the first place.